Here we go!
Spirit has asked me through several people (and presumably through myself as well, though I might’ve blocked that one out) to start a weekly blog sent out via email to whomever wants to be a part of it! The prompt is for me to share what’s going on in my spiritual/emotional world each week.
Today’s a pretty good day to start since it’s one week into the New Year!
What’s been going on??
As I make baby steps toward being more visible in the world, I know there’s work to be done about feeling worthy (of people’s time, attention, trust), and steps to take to ensure that I’m feeling safe and secure – it’s much more like me to hide… and I have a lot of practice with that! It’s always felt safer to hide so no one could see me make the mistakes I’ll inevitably make and judge me as I’d judge myself.
Yet I’ve got to build a new framework with myself and my inner children that lets them know that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks of me – because I’ve got me. It’s in progress! It's definitely scary to share more with a larger audience. All sorts of fears around rejection and my fear of not being good enough are roaring and ready to go (and I wish they would). It’s new for me and new things can feel scary.
Nevertheless, I know it’s so important to nurture myself through all of this, because I really want to be authentic to myself above all else. I want to send the message to myself that I’m worth doing that for – that my experiences/thoughts/words are valid – and I hope it can help others feel seen and validated, too.
I know I’m always grateful when someone shares their truth with me – especially people who walk the spiritual path. Knowing what work others do behind the scenes to stay in alignment makes me feel like I’m not alone with my more ‘persistent’ patterns or fears. It reminds me that everyone has things they’re working on, and that we are constantly a work (or play?) in progress.
I used to feel like I’d reach a finish line at some point! I grieved the loss of that mindset though it did set me a little freer. I don’t want to race through life anyway.
On the topic of racing through life – that’s one thing I’ve been really mindful of over the last week!
Conscious and Unconscious Intentions
In my Divine Family Practitioners work, we’ve been talking about conscious and unconscious intentions.
One of my BIGGEST Unconscious Intentions is to get the thing done as quickly and as efficiently as possible.
Catching myself now… as I type at lightning speed…
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I don’t want to use this space as a task that I can cross of My To-Do List and be Good for doing. I really want to do this from a place of presence and alignment, so that I am sharing as truly as I can, and so that I can share that vibration with anyone who reads these words.
So, I’ll set a conscious intention now.
I intend that these blogs/emails help set me free from my own self-judgment and move me toward greater self-love and self-acceptance.
And…
I intend that they find the right people, and that they support those reading in their own journey toward greater self-love and acceptance.
May it be so!!!
Excited and interested to see where this goes. But with my intention only to serve, I’ll leave it for this week and I look forward to writing and reflecting again next week! If you read this far, thank you so much!
Xx