Holding Space
Hi all!
I’m really enjoying feeling a little tapped in and connected to all of you as I write! Thank you all for being there, and I hope you are feeling well and connected, too, as this arrives in your inbox.
Sending lots of (extra) love from this side of the screen in case you aren’t.
Somewhat connected is an idea that’s been extra in my awareness over the last week or so: holding space. I love it as a phrase and an idea (holding the physically unholdable) and as a feeling (so grounding, spacious, secure), and I think both the giving and the receiving of space is one of the greatest gifts we can offer ourselves and others.
This past week, I feel like Spirit reminded me about the Divine Masculine.
Ooooh….! I almost forgot about him!
But I’m so glad I was prompted back into remembering. Thanks to all who played their part.
And it came at the perfect time as I’ve recently received assignments from one of my jobs that feel hard (to my ego). They’re techy jobs – figuring out computer software programs, learning about servers, researching databases…
Basically, things that have felt like the polar opposite to all the Divine Feminine sensuality, beauty, painting, creativity yumminess I’ve been enjoying so much.
At first, my mind was pretty set that those types of jobs just aren’t for me and I was briefly but meaningfully committed to “I don’t wanna” (enter: procrastination, dissatisfaction and frustration). Although I hoped Spirit would tell me that this was a golden opportunity to practice boundaries and express that I couldn’t do this work (I’m an English major!), instead, they encouraged to embrace what was intimidating me, rise up to the challenge, and grow my ‘pragmatic and stable energy’.
It's true that this tech work feels intimidating; it feels entirely new and out of my current skillset. But I know now that I need to use the Divine Masculine to support and encourage myself, to help me feel capable, confident and competent, and to help my Divine Feminine side feel safe to be present, open and even creative through it.
Just the awareness that this was the dynamic at play helped me hugely (Thank you, Tina), and I’m excited about deepening this and finding new balance.
And yes, I overcompensated a little at first (old habits dying hard, LOL!) but I caught myself, and I’m determined to stay connected, and not violate my own boundaries by either sinking into the resistance or pushing past it without concern.
Holding space for it! Sending you a little space, too [ ] in case you need it.
Lots of l o v e,
Erin xx