Man Plans, God Laughs
Here’s a scenario I had at the end of February and the message that came through when I sat down and spoke about it to Spirit. Maybe some of you will find something relatable in this situation!
The message I received begins under What’s Coming Through.
What’s going on
A call from my dad asking that I decide ‘what I want to do with my life’. This has made me feel slightly anxious. I feel somehow pressured – very much against my better judgment – to make this call, even though I disagree with it as a possibility. I also contest against feeling obligated to pronounce this choice on call and to someone else, when it is my life and my choice and my timing. I feel frustrated that someone outside of me feels entitled and powerful enough to dictate such a personal and meaningful realization, especially when I am, myself, always actively working on improving myself in ways that he does not know. I feel it as a threat to my sovereignty: my own divine timing and growth, which is guided by Spirit and my own soul and evolution – things entirely outside of his remit. At the same time, I think it is hitting a nerve because in truth, sometimes I don’t know “what I want to do”. I have ideas about how I want to feel: fulfilled, creative, connected, in-service, free, empowered. But I don’t yet know what this will look like in a day-to-day, practical sense. And I think I have my own fears and doubts about my future in this regard. Having a historically pressurizing person putting what feels like a deadline on this lifelong process, I think, of determining Purpose feels the opposite: draining, disempowering, anxiety-producing, oppressive. And I struggle to communicate this to him because I don’t think he’d understand, and even though he’s trying to be supportive, I want my time and space to be respected. I think I, too, want to know what I want to do in a specific, practical way, but I want to know for my own self – not to satisfy any one else’s concerns or curiosity.
What’s coming through
It is natural to feel a boundary is being crossed when someone outside of you attempts to – as you felt it – control you in any way. Here, your concern is specifically with your future. Attempts to control your future feel, naturally, oppressive. It feels like an attack on your freedom. This inevitably affects how you feel in this present moment. In fact, it takes you out of it by its very virtue. It is normal and natural to therefore feel frustrated; in a vulnerable moment you are not feeling supported in truth.
The best thing you can do is support yourself. Remind yourself that it is okay to take your time. Remind yourself that the work you are doing now is what you are doing with your life. You are working on cultivating the feelings you want to be within you and this is essential to the energies you’ll bring forth in your career. As you know, the most important thing truly is your alignment and the journey of your soul. Being conscious of your life from this perspective is much more fulfilling and growth-oriented than any shallow, 3D-led ‘decision’ on ‘what you want to do’.
As the saying goes, ‘man plans and God laughs’. See if you can find the humor here. You’ve identified already that in some ways, it is impossible to say exactly what you want to do with the rest of your life. Can you laugh like God? This laugh is one of knowing that there is in many ways nothing ‘to do’. Your life is not a singular destination-point waiting to be achieved. You don’t have to buy into this vision. You can laugh at it. You can answer the question however you want. You decide your own level of freedom.
When you are truly sovereign, you are laughing at any attempts to take it away from you because you know it is impossible. You know it is a waste of energy. Preserve your energy by not going to your thinking-mind for the answers. Feel instead, the vastness of possibility. You can do anything– you can choose, even, to act as if you do not have this sovereignty. However, we advise you to choose the most joyful and freeing perspective.
You are already doing just what you are meant to be doing. You will always be doing what you need to do. You are constantly growing, constantly being given new experience to be in. So, see the truth of that, and laugh at any attempts to make your future or your present smaller. You have the divine perspective available to you, and it is one of freedom and magic. What is yours to do will come to you. Do not give your power away to anyone else. The magic and the vastness of life is entirely yours, it is your birthright.